The Savior…Midwest Games 2007

Posted on May 28, 2007 by yayalalala.
Categories: Games.

1:47ish am,

I was happy to share that i did all those things that were listed on the previous posts:but the time management was far worse than i’d imagined..well,my body didn’t yield to it particularly due to the boredness-of-i-cant-sleep-till-the birds-went chirping-theory,so i ended up finishing everything at 6:55ish am (sigh,n my class is at twelve,u know how i feel at that time).

but what i want to share most was about the Midwest games held in Dekalb,IL. I unexpectedly won third place for congkak….and the words unexpected means that i didnt know i got the third place!!!!hahaha,nizam,mawi,apok and i went to mcD first (we were so starving),so we ended up going late(but it was already late no matter what since the soccer game finished late)…so,i was particularly happy,but still didnt receive the medal though.it was a tough competition;there were too many competitors to be exact and we were not playng in a league(kalah mati),so…Alhamdulilah.

But, i didnt get a chance to grab the medal,so thats why i was a lil bit disappointed..thinking back,betterlah coz my face was totally red marked from the constant 10-ish hours (from 8 till 7pm) giving my full support to nizam at the field..haha,i was the avid supporter tell you guys,so muke trsngat2lah sun-burnt n for once,i didnt bother to do anything about it since i went back here..in fact,i was particularly fond of it since it reminds me of meeting nizam.

Speaking of him,he got 3 medals (kyaah,n remind me to congratulate him in personal,i was beaming with smile,and i knew that he knew that i was so happy and extremely grateful to God about it), nways,he got 2golds for sepak takraw n men’s soccer..and another medal was a MVP for soccer). he was proud about it,n so do i.to b honest,i think he deserved it, because he was putting all his life to win it..but guys,somtimes they think that it was sluggish to let people know how they feel about certain things..so its up to u to understand them more..and im proud about it not because i am his …(u fill it out guys),but he was more like Haru in Pride,hontoni dess!!He deserved it,so did Vanderbilt to win a second title in it!!I was so happy for both champs..so congratulations guys!!!i knew better,bcoz nizam never thought that they could win against Vandy,and he really respects his opponents,particularly Vanderbilt..and so did i..so thanx vandy girls particularly the awesome dayana, the spectacular joe(number 9) coz i was truly impressed with u,the amiable syuk,the  respectable Hisyam as the captain for helping us in the first place..and overall,the 55 people from vandy..go vandy go!!(well,i did say it in the field,and other people were like.."aaah yaya, bukan sokong stevens ke??"hahah,coz both nizam n i were particularly fond of u guys!!

So,enuf said,to go to the midwest has been a challenge for me,n i guess it gives me another chance to be more matured in life…usually,i would despise people (urgh it was such a bad story,with unexpected twist in return) for what they did,particularly when i know that i was supposed to be angry,not them..but,semua bnda ini adalah hikmah dri Tuhan..coz it doesnt mean that im correct too!!n right now,it doesnt concern me anything to prove that whose right or wrong..seb mnusia itu sentiasa shj membuat keslhn.so evryone from stevens,mafknlah yaya ats kesilapan yaya,n terima kasih kpd yg menolong…. :)

to nizam sygness,well..its going to be anthr 3 weeks b4 i meet him again…these past weeks have been dramatic for me..even when im in midwest some of my frens were ridiculing me coz i was too spirited (i keep on saying go stevens,but nothing to ridicule other teams,i respect them too) even when i was just a supporter,but i was like that since i was small..tgk org main bola.n its my personality too!!n, people even told me that kt mane nizam nk main,semua pun yaya nk ikut!coz i enjoy evrything about it,coz he was important to me,n coz im not going to meet him again in 3weeks,but mostly..coz i knew he was trying very hard,n i —- him.hehehe,n i was happy about who i am.hehe,

well,thats just about it!wish me luck for the days that’ll come by without him,for the upcoming exams(hahaha,lusa..n we were supposed to move out tomorrow, n my body was exhausted to absorb books, so i need to handsomely accept evrything that i have neglected n study btul2 tomorrow kn)..

to nizam,even though i didnt c u that much,seriously,but i realy appreciate it.for all the precious memories in soccer,n i know u know that i like evrything about u in soccer,well..except bile ur forming salt at ur face, really pushing urself to give ur BEST!!so, CONGRATULATIONS AGAIN!saya Syng kamu..n evrything in between.. ^~^

Chaiyok2..

till then,slm sayang dri yaya pada semua,,n forgive me if there were words yg u guys werent able to comprehend,its a long journal compared to b4,n i was too tired to recheck my grammar etc.n remember, "what u give u get back.."to every actions,words…etc.well,i dun think people read it that much nway,so thank u :)

Salam,
nur hidayah jamar

Dimulakn dgn Bismillah…

Posted on May 21, 2007 by yayalalala.
Categories: Study mode..activated..

5:00 ish pm..

I thought i want to study,
but in the end i was looking for somthing,shall i say,membazir masa.
but i still cant stop it.there were too many devils in me,n around me.
"lagha itu kn perkara yg seronok,krana seronok itulah yg akn membuatkn diriku musnah."
so, after thinking a while,
it’s better to list down for things that i need to do for today:
n it’s a promise between myself..krana yaya berinsyaAllah untuk membuat:

Inside my head (visualizing):
1. Jogging (6:40ish–>7:20ish)
2. Study mode:Calc (least 2 chapters) (7:40ish–>9:00ish)
3. Dinner (till 9:30ish at nisa’s)
4. A rewarding bath (haha)
5. Study mode activated: Calc (another 3 sections: Hwork #1 due) (Time is limitless,but hopefully I can finish it by 1:30-ish am)
6. taking a break by talking to my sayangness!!! (time limit:anytime,less than 30 mins.chaiyok yaya)
7. The final review of Calc (till I was too sleepy to do it)
8. talking.

So, the study mode is finally activated, InsyaAllah…
This is the promise between me,and lets just hoping that i can do it. furthermore,im vertically insomnia and horizontally tears in between with z-axis missing all my love (mama,ayah,semua,nizam..). so, thats why i want to push myself, regrdless of what other people think.
in the end,
it’s my opinion who matters most.
n esp. if ini adlh niat yg baik. a good intention i must say…

"Selawat Al-fatih."
Mula…. :)


Since you’ve been gone..

Posted on May 20, 2007 by yayalalala.
Categories: Love..

I juz went back from jogging…
instead of going to the gym, i went to the park.
it brings back lots of memories,
it’s the first time that nizam brought me sightseeing in US.


That time,we’re so excited,n im so happy to see him smile…
we captured lots of pics (haha), n in the pics, i swear,it was like the real scene.
Tt’s amazing,u can tell the happiness that i felt, the smile was real; there’s no fake in it etc how u react when u saw a camera that u hav this urge to smile-awkwardly.

But, really…
it was indeed..a real smile.

Now he’s not here,
i was sitting in the park,watching the port,the statue,the field,the boat,n my eyes suddenly forming tears,
waiting for him to come from nowhere, n smile at me,
so that i can smile back…

People told me that im practically see him everyday,n now he went to some other place,n i can meet him again for the midwest.
they’re telling me that,even in their eyes..as if they were disgust in me.
the only thing i can do,is crying,letting my hearts out,for winds to come and soothe it,whispering to God..

How can you measure your love by distance???
it disgusts me,for people who think that people who are in love, esp the long-love relationship cant last long…
why do u keep define your love that way?
no matter where your love is,your heart whispers as if he was there for you,
catching every moments together.
There’s no such thing as "we r so far away,that’s why our love has come to THE END."

Only people who didnt give all their best can say that,
coz u can never measure love that way.
If you miss people,u can even though u meet him everyday,or every week,coz ur LOVE IS REAL.

It was the same like pictures;
they’re real,if you’re real.

I miss him,
from the bottom of my heart.
silently crying…
solemnly whispering…
for him to hear my HEART.
i cherish every memories,n the real smile that you have given me.that you will give me,

For that,
i THANK u.

The Pearly Tears

Posted on May 18, 2007 by yayalalala.
Categories: Current Affairs.

I’m in a venge of tears….
trying to brace myself..
predicting of what will happen…
so that i can reprimand myself.

However,

As a human,
I’m still losing it…
the courage..
Coz I can never predict what my Heart would be.

And so,

I’m trying it,
again and again…
to heal myself by Him..
and to celebrate joy with Him…
Coz He showed me Love,and I hope He will accept us both,
to be in Love.

"Tuhan, beri kekuatan, untuk menjalani hidup ini, untuk mendapat ketenangan dariMu. SesungguhNya, kepadaMu jualah aku kembali…"

Amin.