GERAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4:54pm.

GERAM GILE!!!
i’d been pouring myself to do IA final report unit 4 which consists of 3 experiments…was supposed to submit it today.i have IA exam 2 tomorrow but here i am… strucked by my dufus TA’s not-so-innocent-face who told us via emails 5days earlier that he’s not going to extend the report’s due date though he gave a bloody 5days for all the informations. usually, the final report was due 2 WEEKS AFTER THE INFORMATION WAS OBTAINED. what did he expect, do we exist in STEVENS to take a mere IA class + bloody lab n not other subjects?

If i had known that we’re not supposed to submit it,by yesterday n so the other days…I would spend my time studying for IA exam,doing the hwork in peaceful manner, have enough sleep, n no pimples.. By today, all  i need to do is checking back all the calculations,reviewing my notes n be in cheerful mode.

so after the painstaking hrs,days to give them (there were 2 TAs) a "perfect" final lab report (which will always turned out to be yet another IMPERFECT REPORT; thus resulting in POOR GRADE), i came to lab n he told me with his "too good n kind" expression that we can submit it next week. Charming, dont u think??

perhaps u will tell me that i have another week to perfecting it. but lets see. i have a whole bloody week to do it counts a lot when u have a freaking hard exam n the subject that u ‘ve come to detest so much to have mental preparation n gain confidence n yet he destroyed it in a blink!!!!BODOHHHHHH

what a stuuupiid TA. inconsiderate. we’ve suffered enough in 4 -agonized -hrs lab, suffered by all their harsh comments n poor grades (it seems that they can find new mistakes in every new report, even though u made a correction every week) what the heck is wrong with them!!!
aaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

n the lab comprises 50% of the grade.It’s bloody 50%, n do u think that we didnt try?THAT I DiDNT TRY???i  #$%^&(i did but look,they belittled me n my peeps with just a pen!!!!)
A barbaric TA i tell u.

STUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!

n now i dun even hav any mood or confidence to start reading for IA exam, which would b held tomorrow at 9am. Im fidgeting, im angry, im thoroughly annoyed, n I’m scared that I’m not going to get goooddddd REsults. #$%^&^*&%!!! it’s freaking me out!!!! im tired, i need my sleep, n i need to cool myself down. Worst, i dun think i can stand for the exam. Can i have a lil accident today but no major harm done n still entitle with doctor’s note???

HELP WANTED!!!! relieve my stress n pain !!!!!!!!!im about to break down in tears,coz im too angry.

STUPIDDDDDDDDDDD TA
n u know what, i was about to end but i had a sudden realization that i dun even hav the calm feeling…the sort of calm feeling where after u throw everything insides u that kind of thingy!!!!n that means that im thoroughly PISSED, SCARED, NEED SHOWER coz i still didnt hav one n UR PRAYER!!!!

p/s: i didnt use profane words n bodoh was not considered to be profane at all.in fact, it’s perfectly acceptable at this moment. thank u.

5:20pm

Peeps that i wanna see…

2:13 pm

within USA:
*the ones that i couldnt meet regularly except of course my num 1. i always wanna meet him ")*

1) Nizam (sigh..i know i see him almost everyday nut the reason just cant get into my head hahahahahaha).
2) Daju.
3) MARA peeps in D.C. Some of them are the best n coolest people ever!!!!
4) Taufiq. (chett baiknye saye)
5) Si kucenggg.

within MALAYSIA:

1) FAMILY!!! (termasuk syikin hahahaahah though ur in ireland now)
2) Izudin
3) Rezza
4) Fadli (Neo)
5) Shikin (cken-not; btul ke eja)as in my cutie 
6) MY NEIGHBORHOOD Peeps (termasuk atuk2 n nenek2 angkat;in short,people who accept me n bring laugh to my eyes)
7) My BIG family.
Kak Ilyia Nur.
9) Nik Faiz
10) Fateen
11) urm, a bunch of secondary school’s peeps: AUFA! INA! ILI! FAIRUZ! IZZATI! yess,we all went separate ways.not not we, but u guys stick together,im the one who’s drifting away..sigh,it’s not like i dont care about u.that time,i didnt meet with people.xcaye tnye izudin hahaha *serious face* it’s true. i didnt meet him either.
12) aaaahhh. bnyk gile.in short, people esp. dlm klas semua perempuan dulu
13) Peeps in mrsm esp. nik, nuruzaikha, huda, mael, azma (kire satu bilik korg lah yg ya suke tumpang),my last ex roomate, my compound, n entire batch (bole ke??tpi yg saye pernah ckp kot..yg xckp pun xpe,bole knal skrg…n upper batch jua).
14) ooh, bunch of juniors kt mrsm yg ya selalu dtg bilik diorg esp: yg selalu call rumah,cute gurl,sngt cute n baik..tpi sebb dulu suke bgi gelaran je so xingt name (ika’ila smthng)..kak yaya sori sesngt huhuh..but ur definitely my favs!n ramai lah junior.i love u gurls to death!!
15) cikgus…too many.from cikgu saparinah,som in primary school to my mrsm’s teachers esp: pn. sahazilah etc. u guys are awesome!!!
16) people..xkire yg bru or lame..who can share laugh with me,who can accept me for who i am.who can be friends n didnt backstab others. who will condemn n give u the harshest critics ever but still defend u in front of other peeps. thats who i wanna meet the most!!r u one of them? i know i can b one when u r that one!! (vain gile ayat)

2:37 pm.

will update later,like tomorrow???
ooh n will also update my pics from the midwest trip (sori saye pemalas orgnye)
chiaooooo