di pagi raya..

12:29 pm,

bru je bgn,

kakak telefon from ireland dan cuba menyamar in the first place,

xcall mama ayah lgi,

xcall ahmadnizam isa lgi,

bgun dgn demam n selesema,

xgosok gigi lgi,

of courselah xmndi lgi,

check email pipeline n wlaupun dpt excused letter from the dean,saya masih lgi tidak pergi beraya arini,

kemudian check frenster,

mula2 ingt nk tukar shoutout tpi better tulis dlm blog,

ini yg original nye: “sedih sebb saya xpernah jadi such a loner utk hari raya. sory syg but i’m going to cry right now.no doubt..”

disaat ni en. hakim tgh telefon saya tpi suara saya yg bgitu tidak sedap dan bapa saya tgh calling membuatkn saya terpaksa brckp dgn dia separuh jln. well, maaf zahir batin to u too..

i better call them, otherwise satu arini xgerak lah saya dibuatnya. dahlah bnyk benda due arini.

berusaha!

29 may 2009 here i come!

12:35 pm

yaya=unexplainable human being..

9:07 am,

u know, i’m up to a point where i was grinning the whole time my journey started from mc lean building to cpa.

grinning ears to ears.

not because of a sunny weather.

in fact, the weather was so bad (it’s been dreary the whole day yesterday); the wind was 48-52mi/hr and cold rain slapping my bodies since last night . they get even worst this early morning.

but i’m still grinning..

even when my whole jeans and bags were (make that as “are” since i’m still wearing them ) soaking wet, my shoes make the “squishing” sound which is highly embarrassing and i’m so numb now that i cannot feel any sensation on my lower parts.

even when i wore a north face winter jacket (curi from nizam) and people keep staring at me), i don’t care since i want to get my upper body  warm haha …

still,im grinning..

u know y?

because i just had my chem dy test now. not because i aced the test in 4 blinks of eyes (since there’s 4 subjective questions) …

it’s because i didn’t know what to do in that test to a point where my brain started to invent an answer accordingly. bad bad girl,bad bad student. that’s why i’m grinning. weird eh?

well,it cant be helped. read my previous post and u know what i have endured this whole weekend.

well, i need to do laundry because i have no more dry socks and i still need to face the storm again for physics quiz and 4 agonizing hrs of chem dy lab.

and i need to take shower now because of my sneezing + fever + LACK OF SLEEP.

and i need to study physics quiz which is due at 1 pm. of course i didnt study anything yet.

and i need sugars, lots of them!

willy willy wanky o’, yaya needs some love and more.

=)

9:21 am

it’s cold COLD outside!!!

9:19 am,

hari ni, setelah berkali2 skipped lectures for chem dynamics (bru 4 weeks dh skip 6 kot,truk bukn)…akhirnye saya dpt bgn dan pergi ke kelas!ape lgi,terpinga2 ah jua kerana nota xde,pastu xpernah update pun hahaha. it can’t be helped.we meet 3 times a WEEK at 8 am, erghhhhh btul!

gile teruk,test next week.

I’m having so much fun these days,but i need to adjust them accordingly.

saya ambil 21 credits utk senior yr.. tulaah,sape suruh drop class aje memnjng hahah

what I’m taking now:

1) Genetics  incl. 3 hrs lab for 4 crdts

2) 3 hrs Advanced Gen class for 3 crdts

3) 3 hrs Chem dynamics class plus 4 hrs lab for 4 crdts

4) 3 hrs Biochem 2 class for 3 crdts

5) 2 hrs Physics 2 class plus 1 hr recitation for 3 crdts

6) 2 hrs Intro to Scientific Computing plus 2 hrs lab for 3 crdts

7) Badminton for 1 crdt

bnyk bukan?

I’m sure I’m more stressful this sem. with 4 tests coming up and 3 quizzes next week anyway..

sigh,

sorry readers tpi my stress mode is turned on!

haha,

off to take SHOWER and then pelbagai homework yg due pda petang ini!

=)

9:27 am

My LOVE equation

11: 26 am,

I actually posted this right after the previous post. Haha, i guess this is what happening when i’ve been on hiatus for blogging and when the words themselves try to spill from my heart; this is the result. so pls bear it with  me

Have you ever believed in eternal love?

Happily ever after, just like the classic glass slippers story?

Well, i’m for one, am one of the believers..

However, to me, the approach of getting an eternal love is not like falling in love, getting married and end of the chapters..

Otherwise, why do u think  Allah the Almighty puts us in this forsaken world in the first place?

He already made the qada’ n qadar to us, you know…

What im trying to say is that, we have to make LOVE as ETERNAL and not the other way around..

such would be y=mx +c;

where’s

y= Eternal love

m=Trust

x= Affection

c= Happiness

that’s MY love equation, and that’s how I interpret ETERNAL love.

I, for one, don’t care about how OTHER people interpret ETERNAL LOVE.

u know why, because I’m the kind of person whose giving this love equation to whom i love, in a sense that i put him/her more than my own existence.

being here alone makes me know what i need to do now. i need to experience life as MY LIFE and not anyone else. i only have 2 eyes, 2 ears, 1 mouth,  1 nose and 1 body= 1 human being (thank u GOD that im a normal person)

of course, when I’m getting married, i’m back to square one again. I’m sure I’ll be more happier , but it’s a DIFFERENT kind of happiness.

because MY LOVE equation will now have to be OUR LOVE equation.

I’m greedy, so if I don’t have all/one of these,

Then..

bye bye.

11:43 am

Eastern time

NJ

Again, who are u?

11:20 am…

i know myself and what my personality is. so stop pestering on my life and move on with yours. perhaps u don’t have a life and that’s why u r bothering others. perhaps other person likes to be bothered by the kinds of you. But I’m NOT the OTHER person. if you keep on babbling things about the CURRENT me, which I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN, then obviously u don’t know and/or care about me in the first place.

what a bunch or weirdos..

if i’m emo, ur not even there to be a supporter.

i myself don’t want u to be my ears n heart..because u apparently have none of them and/or u keep on closing both organs even when im practically trying to talk..

but when im happy, u will try to critique my life.

Err..

Again, who r u??

Go FIGURE urself out